Fear

That day is finally approaching, the dreaded practical exams for operative dentistry. It used to be "Oh my God... our pracs are in like, 4 weeks."... now it's "I'm shitting myself."

It's a mixture of stress and nervousness...
actually,
take that back,
it's just stress. Nervousness? That will come later... probably as I'm about to sit the exams.

Stress. Where to begin. Laughter has subsided quite a lot this year. Eye bags on the other hand have had their share of exponential exploding rise... and is still on the rise as a matter of fact. What else has risen? Anxiety, sleeplessness, depression, anger, frustration...

I know it'll be worth it in the end. It is because we love what we do that we get so upset over it... because we can't get what we like to do right the first time (which they always expect us to) that we get upset... because we do want to be the best (our best) to help other people...

Going out of my mind.
Insane.

Hui Hui ^^b

Despite the stress

Today's feelings...
Today's goals...
Today's events...
Today's relations...
Today's problems...
Today's discoveries...
Today's hopes...
Today's wants...
Today's inclinations...
Today's thoughts...
Today's fears...
Today's repulsions...

...

"Tomorrow is a new day" as the saying goes. Definition of "new"?
A fresh start
Different expectations
Varied happenings
Unpredictability

... but somehow, it does not feel that way so much. Things to worry about; things to look forward to; things to think about; things that cause my lack of sleep...

it's wrecking my mentality.

Hui Hui ^^b